Thursday, June 14, 2012

i'm strange, aren't we all

you wanna know something quite unusual about me, a 34-year-old, modern, American female? I'm not self-critical, pretty much AT ALL. I don't berate myself about how much I weigh (I do think about it), I don't think I'm not good/smart/pretty enough. I have confidence. It doesn't actually occur to me that I can't do things.  I don't beat myself up about really anything (should I? Maybe I need to a bit more, haha. Maybe that is where that whole temperance/self control thing comes from). I've always been impulsive, and maybe that has much to do with it.  Where did it come from? No idea! I'm guessing my parents did some good parenting!

I'm not trying to be a braggy jerk here, it's actually something I find interesting and a bit perplexing about my  personality. 

What I do think about though, what I would love to know, is how others see me.  Wouldn't everyone like to step outside and check themselves out for a minute? Good thing noone ever can, cause who knows what it would do to the world!

The other day a coworker said to me - she's just like you, she just knows stuff. Haha. That made me laugh. That made me smile, and wonder, just for a minute, hey, am I some kind of smarty pants know it all loudmouth person?

Probably. And that's okay too =)

Monday, June 04, 2012

most loved

like all of us, I have some things I gravitate toward in fashion, damn the trends.

here's my top 5 most loved:

1. White T shirt

 I love this one by Vince...
 but this one by Hanes will do in a pinch.

Well, you say, duh. Of course.

But I have specific jeans needs. These jeans, these specific two kinds and colors, are my go to. (Don't stop making them plz).

Citizens of Humanity Dita Petite

 Hudson Bootcut Petite

But, Jessica's J Brands are kind of "the dream jean". I can't find them for sale anywhere... sad face.

3. Paisley Things. 

I have a mad jones for paisley. J Crew seems to understand this. I have a preference for actual vintage items in this category, but hey, we shall take what we can get. J. Crew's silk paisley button down offerings are everything I could ever hope for.

 I love this one so much I seriously have it in 2 sizes, so I can wear it as I lose weight.
I have this one too. I love it a lot too. But not as much.

This one strikes my fancy too. It's Joie.

This too. Hello. From Anthropologie

4. Tan/Camel Leather Accessories. (no dark brown, never dark brown)

I'm not sure I've met many camel leather accessories I don't like. A sampling:

5. This particular t-shirt

I have approximately 15 of this t-shirt, in various styles and states of wear. I don't love much American Apparel does, but I love this. (oh hey, I see AA has given up the pretense and just has nakey ladies on their site now. Thanks a lot, AA)

out with the old, in with the new June

Oof, I have been remiss about my goal making /posting duties. Skipped May altogether, it seems. Well, that's ok. On to June! 

Soo, April goals:

In with the new:
I took an overnight trip to Charlottesville last night as part of a campaign to desensitize myself to my anxiety around travel.  I actually had a really nice time, and I think I'll try and make shorter trips like this once  a month. I'll start out with trips around VA/MD, and then the next big hurdle is taking a train or plane somewhere further away. Next up is Richmond, I think.
Nope. Nope-ity-nope-nope. This is a tough one for me. I know, in theory, that I need to do this, to chip away at my anxiety. But let's be honest - I don't actually want to go to Richmond for the night, nor spend the money.
But, BUT! I do need to do this, tis important. I do enjoy 1) staying in hotels. 2) exploring different places. 
And, more important, I do like to get on a plane and visit California, or other only plane-reachable (okay, or super long car ride) places. 
What I did with that last trip was go on Friday night - and that was good, because I came back early Saturday morning and didn't feel like my weekend was gone. So yes, this is what I will do. 
Richmond, in June. Loverly.
Out with the old:
I'm going to repeat last month's goals, because they are still really important to me. I have a proper budget now, with savings goals, and I'd like to direct some of that clothes money to savings. I'd also prefer to spend my money on some furniture I'd like rather than clothes. I think I'm pretty well set for spring clothes right now. 
Smoking - still planning on quitting May 2. On the road to that goal. 
I have been spending less on clothes (this is all relative), but more on home fluffing goodness - decorating, gardening, etc. type things. So this is good. But, I still have been spending too much. I need to spend on my savings. Its that simple. Build. Up. Savings. I've set myself some smaller targets on so I can feel all accomplished and what not. The bigger long term savings goals can get depressing when you see how far left you have to go.

I so did not quit smoking. I completely hate smoking at this point, but its still a habit. I am a cold turkey kind of quitter, and I JUST NEED TO STOP.  I have been smoking for far too long and it is lame.


Besides the aforementioned trip and the whole smoking, please don't, thing, I've got some other goals:

1) Sort out basement storage. We've got a lot of inherited furniture, most of Fred's stuff, some of my stuff, and 5 bazillion magazines in our basement. Along with car parts, oh so many. 

The car parts, they ain't going nowhere fast, but I can sort out the rest and make it much more manageable. The car parts will slowly be reduced as they are put on the actual car(s).

I'd like to do this because we basically aren't using this part of the house, also, its an eyesore.

2)  Hit the next 5 lb mark in my weight loss progress. I'm soo tantalizingly close. 

So that's that. Maybe the lifting and heaving and swearing involved in part 1 will help me achieve part 2 =)